Blog 63: Ch 10 THE PLACE CALLED HOME {Star Children} (Convoluted Universe by D. Cannon)

 Chapter 10: The Place Called Home

Star Children:  They consider this planet to be the alien environment.  They do not want to be here.  They are gentle people & do not understand how people can be so callous towards each other; how the world can have so much violence.  They have a longing to go "home", even though they don't really know where "home" is.  In most of these cases, when they are in trance they say they are experiencing their first Earth life, or have had only a few.  Each of these Star Children say they volunteered to come here & experience life in the hope that their lifeforce that has not known violence will have a positive effect upon the Earth.  They are called the infusion or transfusion of new blood.  They volunteered, yet they do not know this consciously, and thus are very unhappy here.  Many of them try to commit suicide in order to escape what they consider to be an unbearable situation.

Their subconscious said the main reason they were here was to act as a conduit of energy that is needed at the present time in the evolution of Earth.  Many, many have told [Dolores Cannon] we are going through dramatic alterations as the Earth changes its vibration & prepares to raise the consciousness of the people of our planet to a higher dimension.  The Star Children energy is needed to help stabilize this transition.

• During 1 session a man said he had completed repaying all of his karma, and didn't have to be here, but was part of the collective sent by the Source.
• Others are collectors of information.
• One lady in trance said that this was not her hoe, and went to her perceived "home": a beautiful water world where she swam in contentment with no worries.  When she was sent to this world to dwell in a heavy dense body, she rebelled against it, and was trying to destroy the body in a vain attempt to return home.
• 2 subject cases witnessed the destruction of their home planet.
• In 1999 a Chinese woman who had an incredible sense of sadness all her life. ... In the session she saw her home planet blowing up.  The shock caused the pain in the chest area she was experiencing consciously, and the sadness was caused by the overwhelming realization that she could never return "home", and that all the people she knew were gone.
• In 2000 a Memphis woman relived a life as a male where she landed on a planet in a small craft to find that everyone had been completely incinerated.  This was her (his) home & he was expecting to find family & friends, but there was no one. 
• These cases show that the destruction of a home planet has occurred several times in the incredibly long history of the universe, and this can carry over into this life as extreme sadness, the feeling of not belonging, or longing to go "home", but not knowing where "home" is.  The period of adjustment to a new world is often difficult, and is hidden within the records of the subconscious.

VIDEO: Signs You Might be a Starseed, Indigo or Crystal Child

Dan was a young man from Australia who Dolores had a session with while at a conference in June 2000.  Here are the notes from that 1st session:

• I left the cloud, but I didn't go down. ... doorway in space. ... I feel like I'm swimming against a tide, to get to it.
• now I can see a massive, massive, very enormous green planet.  It's mostly in eclipse, in shadow, so I can only see the edge of it.  It's very far away.  There are beautiful stars behind, and a bright Sun to the far left.  And that's casting a shadow.  I can see the edge of the planet, and it's a beautiful green, like emerald.  I see a texture.  It's not smooth; it looks bumpy like a science fiction moon.  I am flying over a desert between some structures that are of no purpose other than to act as a gate, as a marker, if you like.
• As I look at it I feel a kind of longing, if you like.  these 2 pillars are on a plain, like a desert.  And an emerald sea is to the right, from my position.  There's a cove further off in the distance.  It's not a beach, as such.  It's like the desert just stops.  And then off a little further inland there are rocks, like a rock outcrop into the ocean.  And it's very big.
• This is for want of a better word this is my home.
• Seeing this place again brought up my earliest memory of feeling completely comfortable.  I'm trying to explore further, but it's like I've taken a photo in my memory, and I hold onto it dearly.
• And I know that in this place I do not have a body.  I'm trying to look at myself, and I know that I'm just essence.
• I'm all things, as it were.  The stillness of the rocks, the heat of the desert, the rolling of the ocean.  they're all comfortable & just nice.
• One thing with these pillars is that I feel they help me travel.  Say if I wanted to come here, I would use those pillars because I know them so well, to get me back there..
• Now I'm getting pictures of beautiful light.  Just light.  I'm having another image now, so I've left there.  From a 3rd party I can sort of see something happening, and i think it may just be an illusion of how it works.  But it's sort of a jellyfish type because it's sort of orb in shape.  There are these little pointy tendons or tentacles that keep me attached to this place.  But not attached. ... Like when the guys {go} into caves, and they leave a line of rope to guide them back to the surface.
• Instinctively I just had a need of a change.  That's what 1st came.  It was just time.  I don't know why.
• This whole thing just hurts.  The separation.
• I was busy looking at my beautiful columns & my beautiful sea, and then all of a sudden I'm just not there. ... And I'm seeing things like galaxies, and wonderful scenes that I always stared at in books.  And just stared & stared, and just wondered & wondered.
• They're too beautiful...it's like a memory.  I can see those columns, and am just feeling really good.  And saying, "Here I am again."  Excellent.  And then I am just waiting until the next time I can come here.

Dan truly did not want to leave this place again after being separated from it for so long.  Finally after suggestions were applied by Dolores, he relaxed & found himself in an unusual lifetime.  There were pyramid shaped buildings that were part of a busy city.  He lived in a huge pyramid type building which had many huge rooms & underground ramps & tunnels.  He was very lonely & bored living in this large place by himself, occasionally looking out of the window or doorway & watching the activity of the people.  Although he was not a prisoner there, he felt separated & trapped in this existence.  He worked as an advisor for only one being, and he was bored because the being was not there often.  He worked with universal energies, and used gestures to focus his thought.

• I'm seeing a big ball of light.  I see it moving through space.  And I see us in direct communication.
• This isn't Earth.  Things here are too big.  I still get this overwhelming feeling of just incompleteness.  Honestly, it's like what I do doesn't really matter, and it's boring.
• And now I'm getting pictures of a very well set muscular individual.  Large & strong.  If I looked at myself I would say I was average, and he's enormous.  I think he's much more important than I.  I think he governs this area.
• I don't think I'm very liked by anybody.  I don't think he treats me with very much respect.  Kind of like a servant.  No politeness about it.  I feel so lonely here.  And I get the same sense that I have here on Earth.

The hypnotherapy session was interrupted and they had to end it there.  But he was able to travel down to Dolores Cannon's home town later for another session.  This time she knew they would have more time to explore his issues, and there was no chance of being disturbed.  He went back to where they left off immediately.

• I'm looking at the  entranceway to my chamber.  There are no designs or anything on the wall.  The walls are definitely stone.  It's cool & it's nice.  There are something like lanterns. ...generated light, some sort of chemical process.  It's just a lovely light.  It's a long gold tube with a glowing glass crystally type thing at the top.  I don't think there's much power involved, and no wiring is used. 
• When I look outside there's a pyramid to my right.  There's a pyramid to my left, which is smaller.  And a pyramid beside the one to my left that's smaller again.
• There are 4 including mine.  The one next to me is much bigger than mine.  And mine is connected to the biggest one & to the other 2.  They are connected by a series of tunnels with these lanterns along them, like corridors.
• They're like strongholds...a focus point for energy.  This larger person we spoke of travels along energy.  He has the ability to just become energy.  I step out of my chamber onto a platform, and it's like an elevator.  I can see flashing lights.  This goes down below quickly.
• I would liaison between the people that treat him like a deity & I know he's not a deity.  I know that he is just as much a part of the universe as any of us.  
• It's this power thing going on.  I can even see arguments now flashing in front of me.  I say that it isn't right, and he doesn't care.
• I just know that I want out of this situation.  I think about running away sometimes, but just lack of commitment, and fear.  And lack of somewhere to go, I think.
• I'm pretty sure I'm the only one that knows that he shouldn't be worshipped the way he's worshipped.  And the secrets that he has should be shared as an uplifting ideal, and not used as a point of "I am better than you."  He's using the people to draw energy from.
• I'm trying to work with the idea that he comes from a different place.  And I think it's more a different space than a different place.
• Instead of using that power that has come about by self awareness.  Instead of doing that & being humble with it, he's being completely egotistical with it.
• Faint memory...telling him that this isn't a good thing.  And he's putting me down for it.
• He can travel to wherever he likes.  When you understand the principle of the universe, there's nothing actually to stop your being anywhere anytime.  It's fundamental matter & energy.
• We can restrict matter into a form, but there is no difference between that matter & energy.  When you understand that consciousness is the separating factor between any kind of form, then when that consciousness reaches a space where it is able to control the form, then what is the difference between anything in the form?  There is none.  It's just a collection of energy placed into physical matter.
• It comes back to the idea that I can exist as a blade of grass, and be a part of that energy, and be an energetic being of pure light simultaneously in different time spaces.  What discerns those 2 energies is my conscious being.
• Time is just an energy that spins.  It's the pulsation of matter.
• So therefore there isn't really time as such, but it exists on a causal plane.  So if there is matter, there is time.  If there is energy, there is time.  If there is consciousness, there is no time, because we are creating our physical worlds from consciousness.
• Consciousness is the driving force of all creation, as we know it.  It's through consciousness to learn or consciousness to exist, that these things exist.
• He had an idea that I knew.  And I think that's why I advised him, because I had some powers.  And I guess when you get to that level that he was, you can see aura like you can see anything else.  And you can read people, and therefore it's easier to have control over them as well.  And it's easy to abuse that.  Rather than honoring that person's individuality in their journey, you take advantage of it.
• After a while the other entity stopped coming.  The people started turning to me for advice, but I had none to give them.
• So I hid basically.  Unless they're ushered into these complexes they don't know how to get into it.  They needed a god.  And I didn't want to be a hypocrite.  I'm in a cycle of just not knowing what to do.
• They looked to him for help & solving all their problems.  Perhaps he was at the stage where he could do that.  I recall him standing there & creating miracles.
• On his last day of that life, Dan remembers being in bed dying alone & the secrets dying with him.  He feels so much regret & loneliness, and complete sorrow.  That he could have done better.
• Everybody's got to do what they've got to do.  And you can be defeated by it, and never do anything.  If you're going to look at every single flaw that you have, you've still got that input to make, that help to give.  And it's worse if you don't even do anything & don't try.

Hypnotherapy case in 1990 with Robert, late 30s/early 40s, Vietnam veteran, unable to hold a job, on disability, chronic pain, mental issues, and VA unable to treat him through medications or hypnosis.  Robert refused to talk about anything that happened during the war & Dolores assured him they didn't even need to explore that area.  So Robert consented to trying QHHT with Dolores.  He skipped past experiences & went to a place that sounded like the spirit realm (where the soul goes between lives).  He found himself in a large place with tall white walls, and different shades of light coming from an unknown source.  The following is from that session:

• I have energy inside of me.  I can feel the warmth of my energy.  I can see my arms.  I feel I can pass through things.  But not all the time.  Only when I need to.
• I'm waiting to go to a terminal.  I'm supposed to get information there, before I go...
• I'm standing in front of something.  I see people.  They're sitting up above, so they can see out around the whole place, all the corridors.  They have auras.  there are yellow auras, and blue auras, and green auras.  And white auras.  One person in the corner has a real white aura.
• It's as if they have an info booth, and they're sitting up above everybody, so they can view out & see who's coming & going.  And you can see them too.  It's like a reception area.  I'm asking what I have to do. (pause) They said, "Don't be alarmed.  You will go when the time is necessary for you to go.  You will go back to school."
• Everybody is being trained, going to school to learn more about what is love, what is life, what is God.  But my concept of God is not their concept.
• God is everywhere.
• We are God.  But we must worship God.  We do not pray for God.
• It's in another dimension.  In our solar system.  this place is just a terminal, info area, for all the different worlds in our one particular universe.
• They're finding out what my background is, and how I would benefit the universe.  And how I can go forward.
• i am going to go on.  to another world.  There are different worlds.  There are hundreds and hundreds and thousands of worlds you can go to.
• I'll make friends anywhere I go.  It would be nice to know that I'm with some friends, but we're all on the same path anyway.  And maybe I can just go on & make my own friends again.
• I've lived other lifetimes.  I've always been in the field of science & medicine & metaphysics.
• My intelligence doesn't match up with what I did on Earth.  I've always been holding myself back.
• I don't know which direction to go, except just the way I'm going.
• Knowledge is never wasted.  That's one joy of knowledge & education.  It's always there.  It's the facts or the truth.
• I need to use the well rounded balance of knowledge that I have accumulated, to help other people who never have had opportunities like that.  I've been very fortunate.
• Earth is just a very small world.  It's  a challenge to live on Earth.
• Everybody needs a challenge, and Earth is one of the challenges.  It always seems like we can deal with this challenge.  But after we're here we're so frustrated, because the challenges are greater than we actually felt they would be.  Looking down at Earth... it's such a tiny planet, but it holds so much chaos that 1 man can't really change it.
• I'm going to go on to someplace else.
• I've always enjoyed the water.  The water & the trees.  On this other world there are different... it doesn't look like the same trees.  And the water is blue because of the oxygen & hydrogen.
• There are physical things.  Animals.  But there's nothing to harm me, like on Earth.
• We don't have any waste, we don't have any food.  We take energy in.  This keeps the body from being denser.
• This is 1 of my favorite places because you can just sit & smell the fragrance of the trees & water.  It's so peaceful.
• While living there I helped other people.
• Other worlds have challenges where you need to know what is right & what is wrong.  You have different paths to go down.  But you have to make sure that the love of God is inside you, and you choose that path.  Because every time we choose that path it reinforces our goodness that we have inside.
• {back in reception area in spirit realm} They'll give me an assignment.  I have some resting time.  I've got to make my adjustments.
• There's always somebody helping.  They're different energies.  They feel very comforting.  They've been with me on Earth.
• The other energy that is with me is more of a light energy.  They're always with me.  They're going to be a part of me.
• But I still don't talk their language.  There's no talk between us.  It's thought.
• Yeah, I'm right there,, right on the edge, looking out into space.  Okay.  I can go now.  ... Everybody has their job.  Everybody has different duties to help each other.  And they always feel sorry for people who live on Earth.  But they also feel sort of jealous, because they can't experience the emotions that we have experienced.
• The light energies haven't experienced emotions, and crying and laughing, like we have experienced it.
• Maybe it's me feeling that I'm a little better than they are.  But I don't have the power they do.  
• It feels like a big rush.  We're on a beach now. {place with different trees & blue water he loves so much}  There are other people saying, "Hello!"  They know me.  They were waiting for me.  And it feels good to be with people I used to know.  They chose the same place I did.
• It is a fairly physical world.  There are a couple people over there that are taller.  They look wiser.  They might be the superiors.
• We have ears, but don't really talk.  We have eyes, and we do see.  We have smells.  And it seems like I have so many different senses.  More than I have here on Earth.  It's going to be nice to experience.  We're all there to be taught & to teach each other.
• Everything has a different smell to it.  And it's correlated with the light it looks like.  Everybody has an aura, like they're encapsulated.
• I need to study & talk & learn.  With these other people we discuss our past lives.  And we're supposed to be instructed how to live on this planet.
• I will stay until we more more or less pass our exams.
• {Talking to Robert's subconscious/higher self/oversoul now} Robert was shown these scenes so he can tell people on Earth that life is forever.  And that we're balanced & living life that we have here on Earth.  We need to know we're spiritual, we're balanced.  He has never developed what he has thought of as his spiritual nature.  Not religious faith, but spiritualism.
• In Robert's case, he has lived more lives on other worlds than on Earth.  He just came to this world because it's a challenge, because he gets bored easily.
• {asking about his physical problems}  Gosh durn, I didn't want to be here. (chuckle) I kind of agree, because I don't want this body.  But I'm stuck with it.
• There is no pain over there.  You have to be physical to understand pain.
• Everybody has to learn about Robert's pain too, because Robert can handle the pain.  But he's having a hard time with the drugs.  Because the poor guy has been on drugs for so many years, from trying to combat this pain.  And this pain is never going to leave him until he dies.
• That's his destiny.  He has to feel the pain, because he can handle the pain.  And people have to learn from him.
• It's not cruel at all, because there's no time.  When one person dies of cancer because he smoked too many cigarettes, the people around him learn an awfully harsh lesson.  And so does he.  But everybody goes on.  It really doesn't matter, because it's just a flash of a few seconds of real time.
• There are not too many places in the universes that have war.  Earth is one of the places that you can experience war as man.  It happened to man a long time ago, when the whole world defaulted.
• There were other beings that came down to help us.  And they tried to mate, and they tried to screw around & play God.
• They wanted to play army, cowboys & Indians.  They set up a pattern.  Humans are basically animals, and it's hard to break the pattern.  It has to do with evolving out of the pattern.
• They didn't know.  It's really not their fault.  I think it just sort of happened. 
• I know what war is like.  I know what fighting is like.  So when I go on to another world, and if somebody became angry or started showing a "recessive" trait I would know what it's like.  And I could help those people get past that.
• The discomfort will be easier as time goes on.

The final outcome is always up to the person.  What it's really all about - learning lessons, and progressing from there.  If we learn a lesson well, then we don't have to repeat it.